Starting Over

Okay, so as you can see I have been away for a while. My daughter went back to the Hospital (+4 lbs) and from there we had Thanksgiving (+6 lbs) and then on to Christmas (+remaining lbs)! Needless to say, I am back within 1.5 lbs of my original start weight! Uggghhhh!

I am sooo frustrated with myself. So, yesterday and today are loading days. I officially start VLCD tomorrow, January 5, 2009! WooHoo!

I think, I take that back, I KNOW this time is different. I have a HUGE support group and have even created a sub group from that. I have a good friend doing it right along side of me and I have experience from the last time to know what I did right and what I did wrong.

One thing I WILL NOT DO is cheat. There is no place for it in my life and there is no place for this fat in my life! It DOES NOT belong to me!

I hope to have this weight off and maintaining with no problems by the end of this year. I will no longer hide from that camera! I already started taking more pictures so I can get comfortable with those camera lenses again. I also started letting people take them and even asking them to so I can have a good record of just how far I have come with proof from those pictures. Pictures really do speak a thousand words! I know I never thought I was this fat. For some reason you just can't wrap your brain around the fact that you have let yourself go so bad! I mean, yes, I SEE the scale, I SEE that my jeans say 18 on them. And yet, I still think, "I am not THAT big"! How do we do that? That is, until I see a picture of myself or catch my reflection in a mirror as I am walking past. It's almost scary and a few times I have even taken a second look to see who that person is! It's crazy. And even crazier is the fact that I have all the knowledge and power to do something about it, and yet I have done nothing.

Well, here is to a New Year and New Me! I hope you'll join me on this journey to the return of Me! I can't wait to meet myself again!

~Kendra

Cheating...Dun Dun Dunnnnn

Well, as the title of the post probably gives away, yes I have done the dreaded cheat, once again. I am not sure what caused it, maybe just because it was there, but I cheated with some serious M&M'S!! Darn Halloween Candy!! Yes, they were good, but not as good as it would have felt to get to 189 by Tuesday a.m.! I think I can still redeem myself, but it will take sheer motivation and willpower on my part.

Starting Weight: 204.8
Loading Weight: 205.9
Today's:Weight: 190.9
AND I lost 1 inch on my waist!! From 43 to 42!!

Exactly 15 lbs from Load Weight and 13.9 from Start Weight in ONLY 26 DAYS!!! I have 20 more days to get to at least 30 lbs, and I think it is totally doable. I am still stoked and cannot believe how fast this is coming off! It is SO exciting! I imagine I will have a gain tomorrow, but I won't let it get me down. I will just take it for what it is, a minor setback, and start plugging away again! After all, I am only human!

~Kendra

Different in Ways I Can Totally Dig!

So, I was thinking out loud to a friend of mine who is doing this Protocol as well. Her husband had told her on Halloween night that he could really see a difference in my weight, especially in my face. Now the part that is different from other diets is this...usually I have to lose about 20-25 lbs. before people start noticing and saying something. With the HCG protocol, people started noticing almost immediately, like the first week or first 5 pounds!

Now, to me that is substantial evidence in proving the "type' of weight that's coming off. Before I know I was not losing the correct tissue/fat because I never felt good, always looked tired, always felt hungry and I didn't get the almost immediate response that I do now.

For those who are considering HCG, go ahead, there's nothing to lose but the BAD stuff! and everything to gain! I can almost guarantee people will notice the first 2 weeks, or maybe even the first week, just like they did me!

I am SO excited to keep going. I am starting my 4th week of Phase 2 tomorrow and hope to be down about 30-34 lbs, which will be my halfway mark by the time this round of Phase 2 is over...Wish me luck!

~Kendra

TOM...ughhh!

So, I was moving along quite nicely and was down to 192.2 and BAM! Tom decides to visit me! Ughh, that makes me so mad, as now I am up to 195.4. I hope this goes down BIGTIME after it's all over. I can't take a 3 lb jump without doing something to cause it! I would like to see me passed the 190's for good by the time the week is oper.

So, that's my goal at the end of the week...189! Here goes nuttin'!

~Kendra

Quick Update!

Yes, I am totally back on track and I am down to 193.7 today! WootWoot!

Today is going to be a tough one though. I am at home with my youngest and she is sick yet again. This time with a stomach bug (yea me:P). Poor thing. I guess she got it with her immune system being down from all those darn antibiotics. I am really looking into getting her gut cleaned up. If anyone knows anything about a candida/yeast cleanse that is safe for toddlers, please, please let me know. I need to start her on a better probiotic too. This one is from the Dr., and I just don't feel like it's doing the trick? Maybe it's because she detests it being in anything I give it to her in. I've tried pudding, yogurt, juice... nothing works! She says, "yuck, mommy, it's old!" Little stinker!

Wish me luck and good luck on your journey!

~Kendra

Back on Track!

Ok, so it has been a really long time without a post. Time has just really been getting away from me, but I plan to do it at least once a week. More if I have time!

Well, one reason I haven't been blogging is because I started cheating (head hung in shame)! Yes, I know, terrible. Well, it all started, IMHO, because I think I have a yeast problem that I did not give enough attention too. Since the cheating started, I have been up and down with the scale. I'd do great one day and then bad for two! Ughh, it really had me baffled. I would think I had it mastered and then WHAMMO, I found myself saying it was okay to eat Pei Wei Chicken Terryaki Lo Mein because the noodles were egg noodles! Um , who ever said egg was on the protocol except in special cases? Yes, it took a little ingenious reasoning, but I did it. I have since found Candida-G. It has cut my cravings almost completely! In JUST THREE DAYS! Woo-Hoo and I am on the losing team again!

I really can't say enough about this diet. Anyone who wants too lose weight, really , you can! I think, for me anyway, I just HAD to get through those first two weeks. I think it may vary for everyone. I was completely carb addicted and have suffered a little from that. Headaches, allergies, and some other stuff that I am just going to chalk up to carb withdrawals and fat toxins leaving my body, FOREVER!!!

So, here are my stats so far...

Start Date: 10/14/2008
Beginning weight: 204.8
Load Weight: 205.9
Todays Weight: 10/30/2008:195.1

I am down 10.8 lbs (from load weight) in just 16 days! Who, on any other diet besides hCG, can say that?

A little thought/question on Ketones:

So, I bought Ketone testing sticks when I purcahsed everything and never used them. I started using them one day when I was cheating. Just so I would have some sort of control to compare to when I started back to my VLCD. It read Negative. I have since dropped a few pounds and decided to try it again. Everyday since then they get heavier. Now, how high should they be to prove we are losing stored fat and nothing else? I ask this because I think the higher would be better since in Ketosis you burn stored fat and that intern releases Ketones. Am I correct? If so I am very happy today as it shows the highest it has since I started. It showed Moderate/Heavy. Between the two darkest colors. So, if what I am thinking is correct, I should be burning that fat like a locomotive burns coal!!

Well, I must say, my third week so far, has been the best. I think just going through the diet and the stages helps me understand everything a lot better. It's funny how after about 2 weeks, you start to look at your body and food differently. Not just getting smaller, ( and 5 people commented on it today!) but I look at food and say, what's this going to do INSIDE my body? Is it going to help me burn more of this nasty fat? Or, is it going to slow or stop my losing, or worse, make me gain? I want nothing to stand in my way. And food just doesn't taste as sweet as losing these pounds and inches feels!

I am on my way back to the old me! I am SO excited to complete this journey. I am almost as excited to see my weigh-in results tomorrow. I think it's gonna be huge! (Fingers crossed!)

XOXO
~Kendra

First Loading Day - R1P2D1

Well, here goes nothin'! I have been at the hospital for a week with my youngest daughter and in that time my hCG came! This in not the hCG from DrugDelivery.ca, this is from an individual who was on the protocol and had to stop because of high blood pressure! Bad for her, GREAT for me!

Anyway, I really didn't get to do the cleansing regimine I wanted, but what the heck, I am going for it anyway! I am VERY excited to see my body start to change and I will keep all posted of my progress, triumphs and trials too, I am sure!

I am injecting 133 Iu hCG. I am going to see how this works for me and will adjust accordingly, if need be. I did this amount because I felt it fit perfect with the 2000Iu hCG I received mixed with half of the 30ml Bacteriostatic wash. I have two in that amount. After the next batch, I will go to the 5000 Iu ampule and decide what amount I want to inject.

Anyway, here goes Load Day #1...wish me luck! I hope I can get enough fatty stuff down!

~Kendra